sana sini, semuanya sama...

when u're not feeling sick, u dont count your blessings. i had a splitting headache yesterday. it was so disturbing that i couldnt even move my head. and it was even more annoying when i took 2 tablets of panadol and 3 hours later, the headche didnt go away. took another tablet and after mum poured a quarter of the biggest size of minyak cap kapak over my head, the pain did subside. while i was lying down to forget the pain, that was when i thot of all the things that i used to complain silently when i was not feeling sick. like, having to entertain rania with her antiques while at the same time having to feed omar. so yesterday i promised to myself not to complain anymore as long as im healthy and on the go.

a good friend juz resigned and when i dialled her office number today, there was no one to pick up the phone. i felt a bit of sadness inside me coz frankly speaking, not many ppl u can count as good friends nowadays. some juz think ure not worth it and some juz regard u as somebody they used to know a long time ago. no matter how far uve changed, ppl will still associate u with ur 'colourful' past. but i did try my best to be in touch with some that i still think worth giving a second chance. but then again, im so used of ppl disliking me for reasons that sometimes i myself do not know. that's juz the way i am , i guess.