a visit of good and bad

a bunch of us went to see leng last night. seeing so many friends after 14 years was a nice stress-reliever moment but at d same time, d reason of meeting up was a sad one.

though we could only voice out encouragement words, nobody would really comprehend what she's really going thru. and dare i say, nobody would want to be in her position. what saddens me d most was looking at her 3 kids who barely understand what's going on. and when she mentioned that they keep asking for their daddy, oh, it juz breaks my heart.

i fought hard not to cry. i did tell them in d car, 'oi! jgn nangis2 kang eh...'
let's juz make her happy. doesnt matter if it's only for 5 minutes or 10.
i wondered what makes all of us felt so bad with d passing. then it occured to me;
this is a person who never fails to attend anybody's wedding,
this is a person who never fails to visit mothers with newborns,
this is a person who never fails to give support in any business launchings,
and this is a person who's much nicer than 14 yrs ago.

i have this paranoia of meeting up with my ex schoolmates.
reasons?
dont ask.

but i regret having to meet up with her for d first time after 14 yrs, in such a gloomy occasion.