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i'll be away next week to visit a dear friend. part of me cant wait to go for the much-awaited holiday but another part feels sad for having to leave my kids.
so used of having both of them everywhere i go, i feel like i'm such a 'bad' mother for having to come up with such decision.
bad is a strong word but that's how i feel.
and up until now, my eldest still said "NO mummy, u cant go."
i know they're in good hands but can i cope with my roller-coaster emotion?