let it flow

a long-lost friend called me last night while i was having dinner. she told me to come for her wedding which is next week. this peculiar girl is one predictable person. when she's not having any serious relationship with the opposite sex, she'd be extra nice to me and once, my house was like her second home. but when she's in a relationship, well, let's juz say i'm invisible. she's much younger than me and everytime she does what she did, i'd juz brush it off coz that's what u expext from an immature person. she''ll realise later if not sooner. but i dont hate her. we had so many memories when we were studying together. lots of it! and 99% of it was unforgettable good ones. i used to be someone who's diificult to be with and yet, she stood by me. among what i enjoyed the most was the weekly clubbing. i had a car but i dont know much about direction while she, the opposite. sometimes, i made the choice when she couldnt decide and vice-versa. we bitched about the same group of ppl. me, moody and she, happy-go-lucky. and that was why we clicked. being in nilai was the best experience i've had.

apology from the bottom of my heart

this is to someone whose feelings ive hurt recently. it wasnt intentional nor did i mean any of it. i could be unwise sometimes and i tend to overreact. juz to let this particular person know that i am truly blessed to be where i am today and without whom, i will never have this satisfation feeling of being a mother to 2 adorable kids...
trial and error makes me a better person.

damn those israelis

i received an email showing pictures that CNN will never show us. pictures of babies and toddlers being attacked by the israelis. after having 2 kids, those picts were the last thing i would want to see but i looked at it anyway coz pictures dont lie and they speak a thousand words. no matter how much they deny, those picts are there for ppl to see.
i've forwarded to some of my friends and i was disturbed by this one particular pict whereby a baby was being born and there's a bullet hole on her/his back. maybe the mother got shot and the bullet went thru. to me, that was nightmare material. if the baby doesnt survive? that would be better. at least she/he would go to heaven. now i understand more why millions of jews were killed. God made things happen for a reason. even with millions dead, they are still the most evil-hearted ppl in the world. i guess they will never stop.

words dont come easy to me...anymore

sometimes i wonder, is my life so boring that i have nothing to write about? some have been complaining that my blog doesnt interest them anymore. everytime i logged in and tried to write sthing, nothing came to my mind. zero!
listening to one of my favourite songs rite now, Jika Kau Bercinta Lagi by Alleycats. let's talk about love then. dont u wish u would fall in love all over again? i dont mind going thru it all again. but i'll definitely change a few things. example? well, let's juz say that i'd be more careful. isnt it a nice feeling when u're in love? i dont know about how do ppl do it nowadays but the trend of young girls dating old men are a scary sight for me. dont blame me if i give that judgemental look. of course i couldnt differentiate between a genuine and a fake one but whatever it is, ppl tend to bend a little bit on the negative side. yeah, yeah, ppl nowadays are not kind and polite anyway. i try to be a civic-minded citizen but if i'm in some unpleasant moment surrounded by ppl with no manners, i'll tell them off. i'll say it out loud especially to ppl who enjoys cutting queue. anywhere, anytime.
so far, the rudest ppl i've met is ppl from the middle east. and the most kiasu other than 'u know who', is the indonesians. they are a terrible lot and u can see their true colours when u go to madinah and mekah, of all places. it's supposed to be a holy place and u're supposed to behave but these ppl, they dont care. in masjidil haram, they are the second loudest and they juz dont behave. it's like they're in a wet market. but u know what they say if u go to mekah. u cant keep any hatred inside u or else...andthat's what happened to me. the more i hate them, the more i see them.
remember about rania almost drown? she refused to swim after the incident until recently. what a relief. thot that she'll have fear of water for the rest of her life. she was ok when i put on her bathing suit and she did swim over the weekend. i think she had a good time...

what's d big deal?

siti is getting married to dato k. ok, what's d big deal? siap buat press conference. man, do u hafta? i know u're a celebrity but do u hafta? it seems to me that everybody's trying to outdo each other in terms of whose wedding is the ultimate. i dont mind mengata coz i'm married but those who are not married yet, jgn mengata lebih2, nanti terkawin yg lagi tua...hehe.
look at azrinaz who got married to sultan brunei, did anybody know about it? nil. and another celebrity yg perasan she got the best 'deal' is norjuma. the way she posed in magazines with bf (at that time) was so getik! it's like she was trying to tell, "look ppl! look who's marrying vvip? me, me! it definitely aint u!" duh...
and speaking of siti, mum made a bet with dad, dad said she wont marry the old man but mum said the opposite. the stake was to double mum's monthly allowance if mum wins or no allowance at all and looking from the news today, mum is definitely carrying a big smile today!!
to my friend who's planning to do her MBA, i hope everything goes the way she wants it to be. limited fund shouldnt be an obstacle. by being determined, everything would be fine. good luck!

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went back to jb over d weekend. hubby has to go to penang; work-related. so, my 2 precious 'bebudak' joined me. it was quite a smooth journey though omar needs a little bit more attention than the sister. didnt do much in jb, stayed home most of the time. evening, brought rania swimming and omar did dip his feet in the pool though.
nothing interesting going on and that's why my blog has been a bore to read. actually, i've so many private stuff that i wanna share but since i know who's reading, it'll be quite dangerous to reveal to all, u know what i mean?

omar is one month old

today omar is one month old. how time flies. his cheek is similar to 'ghafar baba' according to dad but i'd like to link it more to 'don corleone' in 'the godfather'. his neck seems to be missing and his thighs are similar to the mascot from michelin tyres. he's so adorable now that i cant wait for him to grow up.
it's a hectic life as a mother of 2 but i think i can manage. as time goes by, they'll grow up and my burden will be less.

coming back to work

today is my first day at work after almost a month of resting at home. i looked forward to it at first but now, since i'm at the office, i'm starting to miss rania and omar. there's not much to do at the office as i've sorted out a few things in less than an hour. what is omar doing i wonder? i'm sure he missed being stuck to my breast. and rania? at least she got company now. and what about mum? handling 2 kids at one go is no easy task.
i wish i could go home rite now. i juz wanna be with my 2 kids.....