a much-needed break

the Chinese new year's holiday was a much needed break for me.
my schedule was so hectic that i was counting the days to the much-awaited break.
in a way, the hectic schedule produced good outcome (wang besar, wang besar) but at the same time, i juz didnt have the energy by the end of the day.
well, u cant have both ways.

the other day, i was browsing thru my phone and one by one, i deleted numbers that i considered as 'toxic.' come to think of it, u tried to hang on to it for as long as u could remember but then, there was no action. so, why bother?
i used to be optimistic but not anymore.
and u think they had u in mind...?
i have learned to accept things that are beyond my control. no doubt i can pursue the matter but then, i can also learn from it.
why should i care when ppl dont care bout each other anymore.